! one way JESUS

Thursday, August 10, 2006

WHOO~ i'm posting again ! XD but i dont know what to write leh. hmmm...
i'm changing my phone cover ^^ WHEE~
hmmm...let's think of SOMETHING to say.
oh how i miss my old times (^-^) SZE love kaii & tingg
i feel like writing some poem thingy or whatever it is. WHOO~ i love my old one ^^

the bright light from the full moon lights up darkness. But will it last? I've been kept in the darkness for so long. Won't someone come and save me from this rotting world? I always do what people want me to do and not what i want to do. I have to risk my life to do what i want. Must life go on like tt? Do i have a choice? Why does people seem to be so happy everyday? Why do people ignore the emptinesss n sorrow inside of me? Do frenz relly stay by e side? Do real frenz really exist? Or is the world juz too imperfect to hav 1? Am I dreaming? If I am, when did this nightmare started? is this reality? I feel so broken up and I give up...juz wanna tell u so u'll noe

[ of course it has some "z" cos last time it wasnt a LiAnXzXz or bEnGxZxZ language. WHOO~ let's analyse them ^^ i'm bored you see. at least i posted :D ]

the bright light from the full moon lights up darkness.
it was a full moon tt day i wrote :D and it was nice! haha.and everytime i looked at it.it was either at night or in the morning.
But will it last? I've been kept in the darkness for so long. Won't someone come and save me from this rotting world?
hmmm...depressed as usual.
I always do what people want me to do and not what i want to do. I have to risk my life to do what i want.
yes this is still true =( and it's cos of my mom you know. and SOME PEOPLE. *sighs deeply*
Must life go on like tt? Do i have a choice? Why does people seem to be so happy everyday? Why do people ignore the emptinesss n sorrow inside of me? Do frenz relly stay by e side? Do real frenz really exist? Or is the world juz too imperfect to hav 1?
depressed depressed. *sigh* i was extremely depressed tt time. as you can see. [duh!] i wanted to kill myself tt time :D hated the world hated my self =|
Am I dreaming? If I am, when did this nightmare started? is this reality? I feel so broken up and I give up...juz wanna tell u so u'll noe
absurds from kagen no tsuki and only you - yellowcard WHOO~

oh i so love it XD *self-amusement* TALALALA~

~~i'm just another doll to you, another servant.~~

to my dearest s___h__:
Everthing you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe Cause i'm one step closer to the edge
And i'm about to break
I'm sick of the tension/sick of the hunger
sick of you acting like i owe you this
find another place/to feed your greed-
while i find a place to rest
i've lied to you the same way i always do
this is the last smile i'll fake for the sake of being with you.
If you ever find this, good for you then. Cos you'll learn your silly mistake.
And stop being so desperate for love. Cos it's just a foolish game for people like you to play.
When you're gone, everything will be quiet.
I'll enjoy my peace again.
Wish there was a perfect you
To accompany me everyday
Without any fuss you created.
I would have love it.
If only you knew what you meant to me.
A special friend before your stupid game started.
It just destroyed everything.
Goodbye. My dearest friend

and to my dearest friends :D :
Just when I thought I have to make it alone
You were right there by my side
When i'm with you all my fear disappears
If I reach I touch the sky
You've got my back, pick up my slack when I can't see
But nothing picks me up like knowing we'll be
Friends Forever
Face whatever
We never can be torn apart
You and me we are so oddly the same
The way we think, the way we play
Right from the start, so off the charts, about this thing
But we didn't know at first that we were making
Friends Forever
Bound together
We'll always be there
Oh yes there also can be times that get rough
And all that can be said is "Sorry,"
That we were wrong and said some meaningless stuff
And we'll go on together through any nasty weather
The time we parted were painful too.
Everyone puts on a smiling mask
Everytime we're sad
Even if we're far apart
We'll always be there
You made me stronger
You taught me how to look at things differently
You brought me this far
And i want to say thank you
For all you've done
Without you I'll probably wouldnt be here thanking you
I miss you
Do you know that?
Even though we met just only yesterday or two days before
I still long to see you
To stay with you
And talk about SOMETHING
Our little pointless talks
Our meaningless gay stories to make fun of guys
Our act of love
I wish i could turn back time
I'll do it all again
But that's impossible
I LOVE YOU GUYS
Hope to see you all around
Before the world ends.

writing about my pilgrimage at 9:37 pm